Category Archives: poetry

Poem: semantic fever dream (tarot cards)

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“The pain, or the memory of pain, that here was literally sucked away by something nameless until only a void was left.”

2666, Roberto Belano


i didn’t tell you a lie

he said

i never told you a lie

but all she could think was

he didn’t say

i didn’t lie

he didn’t say

i never lied

she felt herself slip

into a semantic fever dream

and she couldn’t remember

him looking her in the eyes


where are the tarot cards

she asked

we burned them

he said

we burned them

she asked

we tore them up

he added

and then we burned them

she felt a sudden pang of remorse

tarot cards

she realized

were a lie

she could live with

don’t let go in oktober

she thought she heard him say

don’t let go in oktober

she repeated

don’t let go

—P.L. Thomas

Poem: bloodied 2:31 am

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“And at once, I knew I was not magnificent”

“Halocene,” Bon Iver

i wake at 2:31 am
finding dried blood
crusted on my left earlobe

i slip stiffly from bed
and walk into our bathroom
looking in the mirror

i clean off the blood
as i often do recognizing
my father’s face in mine

i squeeze the lobe
hoping to stem the bleeding
while fighting the urge to cry

i worry that the tears
might also be blood
so i hold my breath instead



i see a single copper strand
of your hair swirled in the sink
and think of your vodka perfume

i smelled walking in your wake
down the apartment steps
when we were leaving together

i check the bleeding lobe
with you alone in our bed
turned away from me in the dark



i found my father once
covered in blood
lying on his bathroom floor

i knew he had held inside
the bleeding ulcer
until the truth had to come out

i release my lobe
to see my aging skin cracked
wet blood forming there still



i worry the bleeding
will never stop
until i am no longer here

i know some day too soon
i will no longer be here
like my father years ago gone



i return to bed after 3 am
with the bleeding stalled
worried about the pillowcase

i am too awake to sleep
wanting to touch you
to make sure this is real

i am heavy with my father’s face
i am drunk on your perfume
i want to be here forever

Poem: summer tomatoes (this is how we live, this is how we die)

my partner is having a fling
this summer
with tomatoes

a red heirloom
we are sharing
is gradually disappearing
slice by slice
on the cutting board

this morning i ate a slice
on toasted Italian bread
with her homemade hummus
that tastes how i love her

i fell backward
into my childhood summers

when mom would slice
tomatoes warm from the garden
and serve with scrambled eggs

or we’d make tomato sandwiches
on Sunbeam thin slice white bread
coated in Duke’s mayonnaise

our cutting board
will be empty soon

or another tomato
will start to disappear
slice by slice

you cannot return to childhood
or freeze time
during a summer fling
with tomatoes

this is how we live,
this is how we die

—P.L. Thomas

Poem: i hate the rain

[Header Photo by Alex Dukhanov on Unsplash]

i hate the rain
especially in summer

i hate the rain
especially in winter

i sit in the car
waiting in the parking lot

for a spring storm to pass
listening to songs about indiana

i hate the rain
but i love the promises

of all these showers
maybe we’ll survive this

we are mostly water
like the planet underneath us

in the summer rain covers
the sun and warmth we adore

in winter rain falls wet and cold
instead of the snow we adore

only small children love rain puddles
stomping with glee and wet feet

i hate the rain
and stepping over standing water

because i care more about shoes
than being carelessly happy

like a child

—P.L. Thomas

Poem: we lost everything

[Header Photo by Wesley Jackson on Unsplash]

we lost everything

every thing
everything that mattered

the dripping faucet
ran the reservoir dry


he told us
talking metaphorically

and then the rains came
and the flooding

we could barely keep
heads above water


he told us
talking literally

the washed away
was gone forever

great ashen heaps
of splintered rot

but the children couldn’t
believe these stories

cracked lips bleeding
wasteland as far as they could see

we lost everything

every thing
everything that mattered

—P.L. Thomas

Writing Purpose and Process: “there’s poetry and there’s songwriting” (Matt Berninger)

[Header image via Genuis, lyrics by Matt Berninger]

As I have noted often, over my forty-plus years teaching students to write, a few patterns remain constant, one of which is students lacking genre awareness.

On the first day of class, I often ask students what novels they read in high school English, and invariably, students include The Crucible or simply say “Shakespeare.”

They read these plays in book form, and have conflated anything in book form with “novel.”

Also, they mostly are experienced in being students who write, not writers.

So I spend a great deal of time and effort in my writing courses helping students become engaged with authentic writing practices, specifically fostering stronger writing purposes (and understanding writing forms/genres) and processes.

As a fan of The National and lead singer/lyricist Matt Berninger, I was particularly struck by this new interview [1] as Berninger begins promoting his second solo album, Get Sunk:

I think this interview is a really wonderful and brief entry point to discussing writer purpose and process (note that Berninger does use some profanity and references pot smoking).

Berninger is an endearing and quirky as his lyrics. And while he may seem flippant at first (“I’ll start fucking around with stuff”), he makes some very sophisticated and accessible observations about purposeful writing and the importance of the writing process (he has begun scribbling lyrics on baseballs instead of his standard journal, for example).

When the interviewer mentions his favorite lyric from Boxer (The National), Berninger offers a brief window into the importance of being a reader as well as the recursive nature of texts: “I stole that from Jonathan Ames.”

Berninger’s lyrics often pull from books, authors, and other song lyrics. Here is an ideal place to discuss with students the conventions of allusion and references as that creates tension with plagiarism (a great opportunity to tie in so-called canonized writers such as Marianne Moore and T.S. Eliot).

But the core comments I think students need to hear and then practice in the writing are about understanding different writing purposes/forms:

I do think songwriting is a very specific kind of thing…. It’s not—there’s poetry and there’s songwriting…. And I think they’re as different as like swimming and ice skating…. It’s like it’s still just words or just water but they’re totally different things.

This distinction and metaphor are powerful because they acknowledge the complexity of choosing and writing in different ways, for different purposes, and for different audiences.

Berninger also talks about his use of scribbling on baseballs for writing ideas. While quirky, this really captures the writing process in an authentic way (not the scripted way often taught in school).

As a teacher of writing and a writer (as well as avid reader), I want students to be fully engaged as writers—not as students performing a stilted essay for the teacher/professor.

We want for our students a sense of purpose, a demonstration of intent, an awareness of form and audience, and ultimately, a writing product of their choosing and for their purposes.

And in the era of intensified AI, I want to stress that AI has no place in these goals because students need and deserve opportunities to experience all of these aspects of brainstorming, drafting, and presenting a final product.

It may seem crude, careless, and flippant, but if we listen carefully, Berninger’s “fucking around” demonstrates the power and complexity of being a writer—and thus, being a teacher of writing.


[1] I highly recommend this blog post on Bon Iver/Justin Vernon as a companion to the Berninger interview.

See my posts on The National.

Poem: best friend (bruises)

[Header Photo by Anna Elgebrant Rekstad on Unsplash]

her best friend
is sorrow

she can hide with
under the covers

to beat herself up
in peace and quiet



look at all those bruises
she said

i don’t know how i got them
she added

beating yourself up
he said

i thought that was only metaphorical
she sighed



her best friend
is sorrow

she can hide with
under the covers

to beat herself up
in peace and quiet

—P.L. Thomas

Poem: sky’s small white rock (sepulchre)

[Header Photo by Colin Watts on Unsplash]

i have met so many
lovely people

much, much younger
than me

certainly ash and entombed
before them



in the floorboard
of the backseat of my car
remains a small white rock

my granddaughter as a toddler
dropped from her tiny hand
asleep in her car seat

while i drove us somewhere
now mostly lost to memory
the way she forgot the rock

even as she at 10 years old
pauses beside the car still
so we can walk hand in hand



i have met so many
lovely people

much, much younger
than me

each replaying in my mind
like the songs my lover loves

etched into the stone of me
wishing i could hold on forever

—P.L. Thomas

Poem: sometimes she would forget (solitary garden)

[Header Photo by Arno Smit on Unsplash]

sometimes she would forget
and begin to draw intently
in the head of her beer
with her little finger nail
painted dark dark green

he would watch her rapt
(three healing blisters
on her palm from climbing)
before softly saying and smiling
you going to drink that

sometimes she would forget
anyone else could be beside her
slipping into her solitary garden
until a gentle hand or word
startled her back to the moment

so when she was alone
right there beside him
he felt like a fingernail drawing
disappearing in the head of a beer
no one was drinking

sometimes they would talk about god
like playing chess blindfolded
or she would take his hand in hers
or text him while he was away
i have a story for you when you get home

—P.L. Thomas